Anonymous: Hey, why are you purging? Don't be dumb. Take care of yourself. Loosing weight is a stupid reason and I'm sure you're smart enough to know that already.
Hey, why are you anonymous? I don’t question your choices, why the fuck are you questioning mine?
But, for the final and ultimate record: purging is a coping mechanism for me. It’s not to lose weight. It’s to deal with stress. I know that it’s unhealthy, and I don’t promote or encourage it.
I do what I want to my body. You do what you want to yours.
I just purged blood.
I’m so scared.
Because I am.
They’re the worst. Because, you know, a bad guy will tell you straight to your face, “Oh, no I don’t like you.” or be like, “No, you’re not pretty. You’re kinda fat, actually.”
A nice guy is ten times worse. Because he’ll smile and talk to you and let you stare into his really pretty blue eyes, and pretend like he likes you.
But he doesn’t. And he doesn’t have the balls to tell you to your fucking face. So he pretends for awhile, and then you part your separate ways.
And then you see him as you’re getting to the elevator, heading towards his room. You smile and say hi, and he looks at you like you’re the fucking spawn of Satan.
And you wonder, “Well, if you went home alone, and I went home alone, why didn’t we just go home alone together?”
But you wouldn’t. Because he’s a nice guy.